My Recent Eats & An Basic Update

Well everything is going Ok...I guess. I'm beginning to do that thing in my head where I wig myself out and undermine my recent efforts and weight loss and everything else that's going on. I guess my OCD spreads to every area in my life. Chelsea from One Healthy Munchkin mentioned on a post the weekend that she always strives for perfection and it's all becoming too much, and so she's just going to give everything her best. And that should be good enough right? Even when I get good grades I consider it a loss because I could of got a better grade or spent more time on the assignment etc etc. Or when I lose weight I undermine that too- Only a pound! I mean I should accept and appreciate every loss but I don't. I want to weigh less, move more, have a different shape, a different face, different grades. I basically want my entire life to be different, enhanced in some way. But it's something I read over the weekend on Roni's blog http://ronisweigh.com/. She said 'Do not spoil'- basically don't spoil what you have by desiring what you don't (taken from a quote by  Epicurus). And it's true I'm constantly wanting something I don't have or maybe don't have yet, or maybe it will never be realistic I don't know. But I am the kind of person who believes if they want something bad enough, they can get it or achieve it.

Anyways, enough of all the deep stuff. Here's some of my recent eats:

I've been eating out of comfort lately and not out of health. I think a diet re-vamp is needed. I'm feeling sluggish, comatosed and heavy. I think the less processed, more natural is the way I'll be going. Hopefully the changes help mentally not just physically :)

Weight...

I'm trying to take a more relaxed approach to weigh ins. I've actually been doing them once every two weeks, but as of next week I'm going to try weekly again and see how I get on. I'm back to the same weight I was back in July- at least I'm back under eleven right? That's what my head said when I saw the number on the scale. My next goal is the 140's. Even though I'm more comfortable in the 130's I'm trying to take my time and set more smaller goals. Challenges I can set myself and focus on making those little lifestyle changes and cementing those healthy habits (some of which have deteriorated over the year).

I definitely need accountability and I'm kidding myself if I try telling myself I don't. Maybe one day I won't need it but at the moment I can't see that being the case. I definitely have the utmost respect for those who don't need to see the number, for whatever reason there is.

This week would be nice to leave the 150's, but I also want to be practical so maybe a 2lb weight loss? That seems reasonable I just need to up the anti by getting more exercise in and watching what I eat. Basically watching the little things that will hopefully add up to a good weight loss next Friday. Anyways, until next time.

Sort of Healthy Cheesecake?

Ok so the recipe was supposed to be a healthier version of a classic cheesecake. But putting the needed ingredients into the mixing bowl it didn't feel very healthy at all. Me and my best friend Al are always baking; scones, biscuits, sponge cakes, brownies, muffins. We love trying new things, but neither of us have ever tried to bake/make a cheesecake. Mainly out of shock of the ingredients, fat content, calories etc.  So when I found this lighter, lower fat recipe we thought we'd give it a go.

 The base was pretty simple 12 digestives crushed finely and 2tbsp butter/margerine melted and mixed in with the biscuits, creating the delicious base. This was Al's part of the masterpiece that is our cheesecake.

 This is me looking like I know what I'm doing with the eggs and cream cheese mixture.

 The part in the mixture where I began worrying about the consistency and texture. Lookily as you can see from the pic below it came together. Panic over!

Al completely massacred this orange and lemon, which the recipe said to add the zest of each. After googling what zest was (yes we forgot), we added it! Won't be doing that again was completely over powering and too much. But because we all love cheesecake so much it was still devoured in two days. A respectful time for cheesecake to last I do be thinking :)

So after letting it cool down when it came out of the oven after 55 minutes on 140 c (fan assisted), we put it in the fridge overnight (the recipe said eight hours) and was excited when we got up (yes we are that sad) to find... ta dah! A CHEESECAKE.

We definitely want to make another. Maybe a chocolate brownie one. Sounds yum right?