Taking A Moment...

...to breathe. Because there is nothing wrong with that, and sometimes that's just what we need to do. Lately, I have found myself taking moments. In these moments I take deep breaths and think about what I need to do logically. And then I write down those things in a list...this makes me feel immediately a little bit better.

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This gives me what I need to get the ball rolling, and before you know it things start happening and your list shrinks in length. I strongly dislike feeling overwhelmed, like nothing will ever get done. It weighs you down in too many ways and makes you drag yourself around life - rather than bouncing around it in strides.

This entire week feels like a blur, like nothing really happened and I never really got going. I know it's only Thursday and that there's still time to get a few things ticked off my list. But I have also been feeling lethargic, tired and irritable. And I have to remind myself that this isn't anybody else's problem but my own. Another thing I have to remember. We all have our days, and I'm no different. But on those days it is really easy to take it out on the people around you, and that's definitely not fair.

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Last night, whilst getting ready to go out, I realised how far I have come in a year and for that I am grateful. Sure, I have wished that I had felt this way years ago but I cannot change that, all I can change is the present and the future. These are the things we need to cling on to. Then it got me thinking about the people who helped me get there, my mom (but she's always there) and secondly my CBT therapists. Sue and Jane really helped me turn my world around and gave me back control over my own life. I have been meaning to write them a letter for ages now and I think it's about time I got on with it...after all, it's always nice to know that people appreciate what you do.

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My eating at the moment is off and on. One moment I can't stop eating and then the next I don't want anything at all. Unfortunately at the moment I am stuck in the first category. I haven't set my weekly goals this week and I think that may be something to do with it. But I also weighed myself the other day and I made a weight goal, which is something I haven't done in a while! And I think it has thrown me off, because that's not the way I work any more. I used to live by the scale and by the numbers, but now (maybe not forever) it's not working for me. Sure, I want to lose weight and get stronger through exercise - but not using that method. That's where I am struggling...

What method do I use?! With all my medical problems, especially with my stomach. It makes things difficult to gage when eating, and I find myself questioning when is best to eat, if I am even hungry. And I think that sometimes I over think things. Shouldn't it be simple. You can be hungry, not hungry or peckish, right? I guess not. I don't want to diet or go on a crazy fast or anything, but I do want to re-establish some goals again. Maybe, I have goals for the month again but readdress them every week with a post on how I am getting on? 

As you can tell, I am feeling a bit lost and down in the dumps at the moment. And I hate to be all doom and gloom but I also don't want to be dishonest and post about sunshine and rainbows when they aren't there!

I just need to re-focus everything, and come up with a plan. Not starting tomorrow either, starting after I finish this post.

Goals for the rest of February:

*Exercise at least 3 times a week.

*Don't eat after 7

*Drink plenty of fluids

*Listen to my body

The first three are my usual goals but the last one is a little different. I've included that one because I haven't been doing this as much as I could. I need to start getting to bed earlier, having some me time, and eating when I want to what I want to. Now I'm not going to eat all the chocolate in my cupboard just to satisfy a craving, but I am going to figure out what I'm craving i.e Sugar, Carbs, Meat and then seek out a healthier choice.

Fingers crossed that by the end of the month I am in a different position entirely, and I am feeling a bit better. This months only a short one and there are only 22 days left, but I really want to make them count!

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How often do you set yourself goals?

and...

How often do you re-assess them?

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Snacking, Snacking, Cereal and Oh, more Snacking...

That has literally been my diet of the past few days. I just don't seem to want big meals or meal-type meals at all. If that makes any sense?

It's 18:51 on a Saturday night and I am exhausted.

It's not like I can't stay a wake at all like last week, but I am very unmotivated and just feeling damn right groggy. Yes, I think that about sums it up. I took a nap earlier but I am already ready for my next or my bed.

Bare with me I think I have a point I am coming to...

Oh yes. So over the past few days I have become a serial snacker. All I want is snacks. Fruit, Crisps and small bowls of Cereal. The idea of eating a big meal just makes me feel nauseous and at the moment I am just going with it. Eating what I am craving and letting it be.

I think forcing it will just make myself bad. Just like last night. I had a baked potato and tuna with salad but afterwards I just felt so sick and haven't felt right since. So I shall continue to just go with it. Still trying to get my fruits and veggies in but just not trying to force food down, which lately I have had the weird habit of trying to do.

Which is crazy right?

Hopefully it subsides soon, but if not I will just have to stock up on all my snacking faves and so be it.

Well, that's me. Hopefully tomorrow I will get a chance to blog down my goals!

Maybe I could do with remembering this also! Just for good measure etc.


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This one too probably?


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Anybody else being fuzzy/funny with their eating habits lately?

Is it the change in weather? Does your diet change dramatically during the colder months?

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Lethargy, Food Diaries and Final Year

I've decided to give a photo food diary another go. I did it yesterday (Saturday), but then I thought about it and how am I going to comment on the food eaten? I am super terrible at keeping a food diary anyways and photographing my food is the easiest way.

So now I am in a predicament...

Does anybody else keep a food diary? Comment below how because I am really trying to keep this up, but it's so time consuming!

Anyways, here were yesterdays eats. Not the best they good be, but lately I have just felt so lethargic and especially on the days were I need to get a lot of reading done. I will read for a couple of hours and then break, either with a beverage or I take a YouTube break and catch up on the videos in my Watch Later list. I'm aware that I seriously need to start taking walks during these breaks and getting outside in the fresh air. But for the last couple of weeks there has been a day each week, either Sat or Sun, where I don't get out and I catch up on anything that I seem to be behind with.

That will change soon when I get back into the swing of this work load.

Also I kind-of had the munchies yesterday...so bad. My sleeping pattern was definitely off this weekend, because I ate late and went to bed really late!

I need to stop babbling, seriously this time and show you my eats.

 It was a full-banana.

My 'new' favourite cereal. Love this stuff. But now I am out. That's why I need to go out today and pick up  a few bits!

Just to point out. There was only a third of this left.

I was having this to tired me over (about 3pm) until we went for a meal later on about 9pm, but I got my nights mixed up and it turns out we weren't meant to be going to the Helen Fielding talk at The Cheltenham Literature Festival until next week. FAIL.

Gala Apple. I ended up throwing half if this away, it was powdery and not nice and I now have 3 more to eat!

Crackers and what was unpictured was some mature cheddar. Like I said it was a snacky day!

Porridge and Nutella, which is always a classic/favourite in my book.

Nutella on Wholewheat with a mini banana. Just what I was craving at half eleven after a glass of wine and couple of beers.

I must admit at the moment, even with my lethargy and illness, I am doing well to keep up. I am attending all my classes (minus one) and I am doing all the reading and more in preparation for my classes. I'm seriously hoping that it lasts. This semester, if not year, I am finding that I've become more determined as a person and I am really fighting for my future. This includes taking the best steps in that direction, and as always healthy living is a big part of that - even though I feel that of late my healthy living hasn't took top priority. But in my mind I am like 'how could it'. I leave the safety of academics a few months time and I want to find a way of earning a living, one that covers bills and so that's been my top priority as of late (everything that will go towards the end product of my Final Year).

But I do find myself starting to wonder what the scale says and also wanting to start exercising more again and make time to exercise. I did take a step to doing this by joining an all Ladies gym on Friday with my best friend. We signed up for a week, but after that I plan to try out swimming again and hopefully I will have brought my exercise videos back with me by that point. I thought I'll pay for a month (student budget), and then after that swimming! So I am still trying to attain a healthy lifestyle, even if it's not my top priority.

Admittedly, I do need to start eating better than I am. Mainly portion control and going for walks.

Anybody else on a new exercise adventure recently?

Food Diaries?

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